But something (I call it the Holy Spirit) led me to listen to “Church in the Wild” by Kanye West and Jay-Z. I listened to the song 3 times, looked at the lyrics and lightbulbs started to go off.  Are all people  individual “churches” merely existing  and idolizing/worshipping our own “God’s” or is the church a part of the “wild” in the world. Has our life been literally made us animals living in this wild of life, without having any divine purpose. What are we allowing our offspring to believe in? Are we becoming a generation of wildly animals who are merely worshipping and idolizing ourselves, our music and even our churches?

I wonder, how we idolize so much but then wonder why in the world we gain the world but loose our soul? Then we wonder why we are out in the world killing each other? What do we even believe anymore?

Where is the soul of our future? What do we honestly believe in? Do we even care about our environment, our neighbors, our family? Or are we all just worshipping our shoes and clothes and cars?

Kanye said in the song “What’s a God to a non-believer” then he said “We formed a new religion. No sins as long as there’s permission”

We have created our own religions and justified our sins and our misdoings through our own beliefs and sometimes through the bible.

It also got me thinking about what John Lennon said a long time ago “Christianity will go. It will vanish and shrink. I needn’t argue with that; I’m right and I will be proved right. We’re more popular than Jesus now; I don’t know which will go first – rock and roll or Christianity. I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and Buddha and all the rest said was right. It’s just that the translations have gone wrong”

What was John Lennon saying here? What is Kanye West and Jay-Z saying? Did they stop believing in organized religion and create their own, do they love God? Is Rock and Roll or Rap a God? I’m compelled to say yes, in  spite of my beliefs because we all justify our own personal theologies. What is God trying to tell us as “believers”?  Is Christianity Dying or are we as a generation of believers choosing to worship other Gods?

So who do we believe in? Who is our God?  When there is so much that we worship, how can we ask our “God” to save us? Just because someone chooses not to believe in your “God” does it make them “Godless” or “Satanic” ? How can we praise and worship so many things by removing “God from it”

I thought there was only one God? But do we all have our own God’s?

SOMETHING To think about..

Open your mind to the reality of the world we are living in. My beliefs are only as big as my church. My beliefs are only as strong as I make them. I believe in the trinity, God the Father, God the Son, God the Holy Spirit. But who am I to say that those who see God as Allah are not worthy of God’s love. That they don’t operate under the same Trinity that I do.

I believe we all have to chose who we will serve in our lives. Yes, I love things, yes I love to make money, yes I love music. But I serve God, I believe Jesus is the Messiah, Jesus saved me from eternal sins. He allows me to receive the blessings of this world. Not because I deserve them, not because I have to get them but because that is his pledge to me because I BELIEVE. Are you willing to give up what you love for who you love? Are we willing to give up our money and our time to make God happy? Or do we even care anymore about pleasing God? Yes we pray, yes we thank God for our blessings but do we give enough our time to edify his life?

Chose ye this day, whom will you serve!

Peace

Miss. Jenee

*Please note, I am taking a brief social network break*

Jenee

As we mature in our faith, we have to know that praying and asking God for things is not merely about us, it is about how what God is going to bless us with through our prayers will uplift the kingdom of God. Have you been praying but receiving no answers? While you pray do you reduce the noise and influence around you? Are you specific in your prayers? Are you praying with the thoughts in mind that you are asking for somethings that you need that will help you towards your purpose? Pray with a steadfast hope. If  you are struggling with your prayer life and what to say read Lamentations 3. Before we start to complain, pray and ask God to bless someone else in our lives that is going through a worse situation.

Sweet Holy Jesus, Sweet Heavenly Dove,

I pray that your spirit of comfort encompasses the brother or sister reading this blog. I pray that your arms of protection cover them from hurt harm or danger. I pray that the very thing that each one of the readers are asking for God that you show them direction in their prayer life. God if its a job they are seeking, provide them with a job that will use their gifts and will provide for their needs. If its a change in atmosphere God, show them the beauty in their current situation and help them to see the best is yet to come. Lord God, if its redemption, God I ask that you give them peace like a river, you give them your sweet holy spirit to watch them as they pray for peace that encompasses all understanding God. And God I pray for those in dire need of  love, financial breakthroughs, transportation issues, that you give them the desires of their heart Lord, that you show favor in their lives so they will be able to see your face.

In Your Son Jesus Christ Name

Miss. Jenee

1. Graduate Degree…. Not CLOSE and not in the immediate future

2. Married… no where near it.. cause I’m Super Duper Single..

3. Living in a house that I own… Close but not close enough..

4. Driving a Luxury Vehicle…. umm yeah about that.. lol long story

5. Making over $70k… lol.. what was I thinking..

I may not like that I don’t make a lot of money, but the fact that I do something I love keeps me happy. Although I have to work 1000 other jobs and hustles to make my standard of living. I am assured that one day God will grant me with a career that I love and get paid well to do it. Once upon a time I did make a substantial amount of money and HATED my job. So while I love my job I won’t complain until it is time for me to move on.

Being single doesn’t bother me much either because for once  I’ve learned to be alone and love it. I take myself out alone all the time and it has shown me that I can be alone and LOVE it!

What bothers me out of the entire goals by 30 list is the “what if’s” What if I had stayed with him? What if I had fought for once in my life? What if I had went straight to graduate school in the middle of this economic depression? What if I would have stayed in NC? What if I had never accepted my calling?

I remember I met someone 2 years ago almost to the week. It happened so fast. My mom told me it was moving to fast, but me being the lover that I am, I didn’t listen. Maybe because I saw him being a different breed of man. #1 he persued me.  I invited everyone to come to church for my birthday that year and although he had only known me through mutual friends and social networks. He came to church, he came to my birthday parties that year. I even caught myself being googly eyed about him and I barely knew him. We started a serious relationship immediately after my birthday. For the 1st time I had someone who I thought loved me flaws and all, then everything came crashing down, what he wanted (namely kids) I wasn’t sure I wanted.  Maybe I should have just kept my mouth closed and not have been so opinionated about things, but being the Leo that I am I always had to let everything be known.

You see, as as I get older I realize that there aren’t many times in life you really fall in love. I’m the type that if someone does me wrong I drop them and never look back. Just ask my college boyfriend. lol I’ve only been in love with 2 people in my lifetime. We will call my 2nd love. Purple.  Please don’t expect this to be a comparison of my 2 loves. Both are drastically different.

But Purple, he had me at hello. Literally. I never knew he paid that much attention to me and as time went on, I found out that we had much more in common than I cared to recognized. The one thing I loved about Purple more than anything was that he was supportive of me, that he was kind to me, that I would literally rush home, so that we could be together that night. It was the type of love I yearned for in my life. The type of love that we all wish we could have in our life time.

To this day I still love him. Even though the whole “in love” and “love” come up often in my thoughts of him because face it, we don’t just stop loving someone after we break up with the. But, Sometimes I wonder if we can ever get that love back, that love that we first have with someone. That love that makes you weak and that makes you wear something special because you know they will be there, that makes you skip hanging out with your girls, to spend time with them. The love you tell all of your friends about. The love that Years later, the only man you even talk about to them is him lol.

It’s hilarious but with each year, I wonder over and over, was he my “great love” ? Maybe I’m just naive to think that after all this time, I could still love him and he could still love me. I’ve learned to be able to express my emotions and feelings over the past few years. Before I would just bottle them up and not express them until I just blew up..

But now as each birthday  passes I realize how very fragile I am. How constantly getting rejected and ignored by the one person you thought cared about you can do to your already weak spirit. Advice to my sistahs: love yourself enough to know when to move on. Love yourself enough to love someone. Love yourself enough to recognize when someone is using you and love yourself enough to know that you are a rare gem! God loves you and no one defines your worth, not a man, not a family member, not  even your net worth.

Lauren Hill said it best when she said “I loved real, real hard once, but the love wasn’t returned. Found out the man I’d die for wasn’t even concerned. “

I wish that I could get those days back and cherish them more.  But I know its all a part of God’s bigger plan. With each passing year, I know that God has something bigger and greater in store for me. With expanding my ministry and various businesses. With getting married to the man of my dreams, with having a kid or two. living in a house that I own  and making above and beyond the amount of income I had planned to make.

I’ve learned that my mistakes make me human. That my prayers keep me going and that my family keeps me grounded. I’ve learned that although you may love someone, they may never forgive you and may never allow you to love them because they have no clue what it really means to be loved. I’ve learned that true love always returns if its supposed to and that the person God has ordained for me to be with, is waiting for me just as I am waiting for him. I’ve realized that being away from people makes it so much easier to think clearly.

The most important thing I have learned is that although I am single, I am never alone. I’ve learn to TRUST God for big things even when they seem so far away! God has set me apart for a reason. I’m rare because God wants me to be that way. I pray that everything I do uplift the Kingdom of God in a special way. A delay is not a denial!

Proverbs 3:5- “Trust the Lord, with all your heart and Lean not unto your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and He will direct your paths”

Lord I will trust you.. Thank you

After All that I have been through, I still have JOY!  This joy I have, the world didn’t give it to me and  the World can NEVER take it away!

Man and Woman marry. They have 4 children and continue marriage for 30 years.  Man cheats and marries woman he cheats on wife with.  Woman NEVER remarries and lives with resentment her ENTIRE life for what she believes he did to her. Creating stress for the 4 children.

Man and Woman marry, they have 4 beautiful children, man cheats on wife and marries the woman he cheats on wife with.  1st Wife, moves on, gets married to her 2nd husband and although there is initial tension, the woman moves on and still is friendly to her 1st husband and his wife.

My name is Jenee and I have been cheated on. Not once, not twice, but multiple times. Did I die from it, No. Did I learn from it, HELL YES! Women we have to STOP playing the Victim. YOU ARE NOT THE FIRST NOR THE LAST TO GET CHEATED ON!!!

Just because he/she cheated does not make you LESS of a woman. ITS NOT ABOUT YOU, BECAUSE IF IT WAS, HE WOULDN’T HAVE CHEATED. People cheat because they are selfish, PERIOD. Not because you did something wrong, not because you didn’t do enough. What they lay down and do is between them, God and that other person. Be HAPPY THAT they did and you found out so that you can find someone who CARES AND LOVES you enough to not cheat on you. Since when did a relationship define who you are as a woman, a mother as a FRIEND.  I usually don’t comment on Reality TV because I don’t care enough but the episode of  The Braxton’s literally HURT my HEART. Because I have seen and been a living example of the life that The Braxton’s lived.

Initially I didn’t want to talk about it, because truth is, it still hurts to think about it, but I pray that this story will help some woman MOVE ON and LIVE HER LIFE!

Janine and Logan were married for 15 years,  they met each other at a young age, got married and decided to have children. During the course of their relationship, Logan was unfaithful to Janine multiple times. Logan and Janine filed for divorce knowing that their children’s lives would be forever changed. Janine was very hurt because the man that she loved and trusted was now with the woman he had been cheating on her with.  Janine had a hard time adjusting to life as a single mother. She had her family’s support but she really struggled initially.  Especially because less than a month after her divorce was final between Janine and Logan he  married Sasha, the same woman he was cheating on Janine with. Janine decided to allow her children in the wedding of Logan and Sasha. It hurt Janine to the core but she knew that this was all a process and that her children had NOTHING to do with the break down of the marriage between and her Logan. Janine could have chosen to be bitter, angry and ressentful towards Logan and speak negatively about him to their children, but instead she chose to move on and let her children keep a healthy relationship with their father regardless of if she was still hurt by the things he had done in their relationship.  Over the course of years, Janine and Logan’s children got older. They found out exactly what happened with the marriage of their parents. Their father had become distant, with his new wife and her children and only came around his own children when there were special events or during the summer. Although, Janine encouraged the relationship between Logan and his children, his children had gotten older and he had not learned how to balance his new family and his other family. Needless to say there was hurt for Logan and Janine’s children because they didn’t understand why their father wasn’t around them and didn’t have a strong relationship with them. Fast Forward 5 years. Janine is now  remarried, Logan divorced Sasha and has started to try to sever the things he couldn’t balance while married to Sasha. Fast Forward 3 years, Janine and her children were introduced to a child that Logan had while he was married to Janine. The daughter that he knew was his but never told anyone about or spent time with. Their lives are still growing and the story continues.

I am a character in this story, and although I won’t tell you who. I wrote it out to say, STOP holding your children and your life HOSTAGE because of what a man did to you! STOP living your life resenting someone who doesn’t even care about you ANYMORE. Janine could have easily gone on to tell her children what a HORRIBLE person Logan was. But Janine did not, she realize her children had NOTHING to do with the problems that occurred in her marriage. Instead she chose to LIVE and LOVE herself enough to see that she needed to move on and NOT play the Victim. What is even more incredible about this story is that after all these years Janine found out that Logan had a child by another woman while they were in their first years of marriage. Janine LOVEs this child as if she were her own because she is the sibling to her own children. Janine grew up with her father in and out of her life, so she wanted to make sure her children kept a relationship with their sibling.

We should all confront and  recognize our anger and bitterness toward others, because that is part of the healing process however, harboring those feelings and refusing to work toward the restoration of broken relationships is contrary to God’s will and desire for our lives. We need to prayerfully confess inner feelings of anger,  to God and then  surrender them to God so that he will heal our hearts and allow us to move on. When we don’t allow ourselves to forgive those who have done us wrong, we are only hurting ourselves!! 

“But when you are praying, first forgive anyone you are holding a grudge against, so that your Father in heaven will forgive you your sins too. Mark 11: 25″

“And I will give you a new heart — I will give you new and right desires — and put a new spirit within you. I will take out your stony hearts of sin and give you new hearts of love. “ Ezekial 36: 26-27

Choose to NOT play the vicitim!

Love you all!

Ok Start Judging me.. lol

My point in saying this is that the car can so many times be a facade. Take me for instance. I drive a bucket, most times I get the most random questions about my bucket. But as soon as I tell them, it was a gift that came with no car note or insurance, they quickly hush. Women haven’t been known to have nice cars, but men have always placed more value or cars. But when did what kind of car a man drove become a standard. I know mine with my childhood and things embedded in me by my father but what about other women. Why is it when a woman sees a Suburban with 26′s she looses it but if she she’s a 95 Honda she’s immediately repulsed. But a car doesn’t always define a man or a woman.

My uncle was a college professor and wore the same Wrangler Jeans and drove a 20 year old car. The average woman would look him over. But he had a Ph.D, no children, saved alot of money and is a very nice person.

I recently met someone with a bucket, and my immediate thought was NO WAY. But I knew this was a test because the reality is I drive a bucket myself, how can I judge what kind of car he has, especially because he is so nice and has my other required standards.

So what are your standards? Does he/she have to have a nice whip? Does he have to be college educated? What are your non negotiables?

Have you ever felt defeated?

You know, not like loosing a game of basketball or football or your favorite video game, but sincerely feeling defeated! Feeling as though, the world has whipped you and just beaten you down to the ground? I feel that way today. I feel like, no decision I make is  right. Often times we try to believe our words that “every thing happens for a reason” but sometimes I often wonder what  the future reason is for all of this turmoil? But as quickly as these thoughts came into my mind, one of my favorite songs came into my mind.  The lyrics say “We’ve ran the race, we’ve kept the fight, we’ve shed our blood, for what was right. We’ve carried our cross, through storm and rain, because cause of Christ now we can say, we are conquerors.”

I’ll admit that a lot of my problems stem from disobedience. But I believe that maturity is truly about learning for yourself what is right and wrong. But making the same mistakes in a different way is not my  example of “maturity” however,  I know that the devil is already defeated.

The times when I feel alone, the times when I feel like everything is going wrong, God always provides me with comfort and peace. The only way to get what you really want is to let go of what you know you don’t want or don’t need in your life. Removing the excess mess from our lives, allows our mind’s to stay clear and focused on God. Did you know that Satan, the Devil, is a real person… a spirit being, with intelligence, tangible characteristics, and whose incessant goal and ambition is to “steal, kill, and destroy” But the awesome thing about being a Believer in God is knowing that you as a believer have all dominion and power over Satan. So many times we are our own worse Devil. We do wrong and think we can’t come back from it! But its up to us to defeat those devil’s that plague us and work to overcome those things that make us feel defeated!  Believing that if we pray and pray and pray without ceasing that the Devil will rise up out of our lives. Just to be clear though, know the devil is always lurking and waiting for an entrance into your heart, but knowing that you have control of your thoughts and constantly staying in prayer, the devil will know that you are living only in God’s authority only by God’s voice will you move.

Sometimes we have to encourage ourselves, when things go wrong, its up to us to pray and ask God to deliver us from the past and help us move toward the future. Be blessed!

I’ve always been smart. Underachiever yes, slacker yes, but I’ve always been smart. My teacher’s noticed this starting in  elementary school, all through college and even on my job. My superiors always told me I was bright, articulate, and brilliant.  They would write home letters to my parents and even have individual conferences with me to say,”you are the smartest person in my class, but you just don’t try hard enough” I will never forget my Professor Dr. Cole at Bennett calling my mother to tell her that I was about to get dropped from his class for failure to attend. I would go into his class less than once a week and still get A’s on my quizzes  but the tests I would get C’s because I would know the principals of it without studying but not the in-depth things we would learn in class. I was just never motivated enough to sit in class and attempt to be better than an average student.

Don’t get me wrong there were classes and various parts of my career where I have excelled, but most of the time, i did just enough to slide by. If I didn’t love it, I didn’t do it. And its been one of my major flaws in life. When I’m not in love with the right now aspect of something I underachieve. When I do love something I try to overachieve in the subject. But the major problem in this is that sometimes you have to excel in the things you don’t want to, so that you can get to the place where you need to be..

I then relate this to my relationship life, I love hard. As nonchalant and honest as I am about most things, when it comes to love. I really love, love. Call me hopeless romantic or call me stupid. But I truly believe in Love. But see the thing about love is that it hurts you. From the time we are little girls, we are taught that it is our job to receive things from a man. We are taught that if we do what he says, we will get what we want. And I want to know where this started? Even I would do that with my own daddy, if I frowned enough or begged enough, my daddy would give me exactly what I asked for. We as women are taught that just by our looks we will get what we want.

Especially in relationships! Women think that just because they are beautiful they can convince any man to give them what they want. But I want to know this: When was the last time you as a woman thought about what you could offer a potential man? When was the last time you analyzed and googled your self to see what comes up? Women are so quick to point out the bad in men that they don’t see themselves for who they really are.

Let me get even realer, what man wants  to date much less get into a serious relationship with a woman over 25 who’s only pictures are of her and her child/children or at the club. I mean really? You can’t possibly think you are going to snag a millionaire or your potential husband in the club every night. Its cute at 22 but at 27 not so much.

You see, I don’t make those common mistakes in the pursuit of a significant other, I’m not at the club every night, or do I constantly male bash, or do I always think there aren’t any good men out there. I however am a user. Yep, I use em.

When I meet a man, I use that same psychology I used to always use on my daddy.  Assess and then go for the kill. I’m a good woman, I may not be the skinniest woman or look like a model but I can guarantee you that on the surface level the things that every man wants I have. I can cook, I’m nurturing, I’m educated and Intelligent, I’m funny and I’m pretty, I know how to cater to a man, and I have a keen knowledge of being able to see a man that has been severely neglected.  What I often see in their eyes is the same desire I have, to feel wanted and needed by someone. Maybe they have a temporary desire or maybe its a permanent one. But the overall need is to feel like there is somebody out there who will care enough about them to spend time with them.

I’ve become almost an expert in this category because men do the same thing, they asses what they are willing to give to a woman in order to have her. I’ve never blatantly attempted to use anyone and matter of fact,it wasn’t until typing this blog that I realized that I really was using them.  I have the gift of using what I have to get what I want.

But I unlike men, don’t ever determine the price of my actions. Yes, If I really wanted to go out on a date every night, I probably could. Yes, If I wanted to drive or fly to another city to spend time with him, I probably could. But what cost is this? Sometimes, I’ve called a man because I was too damn lazy to really pursue a relationship with somebody else. Here I am being my usual slacker self and not honestly working hard for a relationship because I was trying to be an underachiever in the love category. If I feel like he’s making me work to hard just to see him, I drop him. If he doesn’t give me what I want, I erase his number. If he bores me on a date, its done.

But here’s the deal women we don’t NEED a man to come in and handle our financial and material needs especially when we are assiduous enough to make our dreams really happen. I never thought that I was doing anything wrong because men do the same thing all the time. If there is a woman who won’t give them what they want, then they are dropped, if he knows he has to work to hard to get something he will quickly drop her. But, I have focused so much time on trying to get what I think I want that I have  missed out on the things that I have need.

So much wasted energy spending time with him and him because I knew I was going to receive something either then or later on down the line that I missed out “him”. The truth is, I have never forgiven myself. Forgiven myself for the mistakes I made in my own personal life, I have this constant desire to feel needed or wanted. I hate when people say this streams from childhood, because I really didn’t have this messed up childhood. My mother always kissed, my daddy too and everyone always told me they loved me. But I don’t exactly remember at what point I felt like I had to feel wanted. I’ve sacrificed on so many of my desires because I needed to feel needed: He needed me because I was able to sexually satisfy him or he needed me because he just needed someone to listen. But when did I set my standard so low on the requirements of my heart.

I don’t need to feel needed when I genuinely love myself. There are different types of love for self, you see I love myself. I take pride in my appearance, I think I am beautiful. But I don’t love myself enough to acknowledge my worth.

I am worth more than my body, I am worth more than a money here and there, I am worth more than “I love you” every now and then and I am CERTAINLY worth more than a meal with some drinks.

So today I make a change, for myself and whatever sista that needed to read this, I hope you make a change today too. Stop being an underachiever, know that whatever you are willing to give out, someone else should be willing to give out to you. Know that nothing is to hard for God.  If we want more we have to be willing to give up the old and embrace the new. We can’t expect love to find us, if we sacrifice our own happiness for the sake of pleasing someone who genuinely could give a shit about u. The person who loves you, won’t cheat on you, the person who loves you will not be married, the person who loves you will not pull you away from your girlfriends so that they can monopolize on your time, the person who loves you will commit to you and only you, the person who loves you will not hit you, the person who loves you will not try to manipulate you, the person who loves you will not see you working hard and not offer to give you some sort of relief, the person that loves you wants the BEST for you and your heart and the Person who loves you starts with yourself.

We can’t possibly want Love if we aren’t willing to sacrifice our own temporary gains… So For Every Sista that Wants and Needs love, I take the pledge with you.

I must end this with a prayer.

Dear God: Bless the woman reading this, let her know that she is your child, Lord, and that  she is worth the love of someone who loves her but first God let her love her self enough to accept your true will in her life. Lord you said in your word that to let your will  but Lord sometimes she may not see your will for her so Lord, let your will show bright in her life. Let her act of disobedience to your will, break the strongholds that over power her life. If there are barriers Lord, move them out of her way. If she is afraid of failure and loosing her financial stability  Lord, show her that you are the way, the  truth and the life. Let her know that only through you will all things be made new, Lord I pray that this woman will follow you forward, forward in loving herself more, forward in better decisions and forward in her service to you Lord. Teach her how to Love God, show her that real Love is about forgiveness of herself first and of all the things she has done in the past Lord. Lord move her heart to tell the truth to herself, and admit the wrong she has done that has only hurt herself ; move her to change her ways Lord. Lord, bless this sister and enlarge her territory give her that thing or idea or vision she has been praying and asking for. Lord I ask that she will learn to increase herself in you and decrease herself into her whole selfish ways. Lord let her know that everything will be alright if she keeps the faith and that only through the acknowledgement of your son Jesus that she will be made new. Lord, you make all things new and it is because of you that the past is  behind us. I ask that you cover her with your son Jesus’s blood, I ask that you provide for her when she feels as if she will regress instead of progress and lastly Lord, I accept my calling for the Evangelism of your word. Lord, for so long I have fought your calling in my life, fought the calling of spreading your word, but Lord, right now I accept it. I honestly and fully give myself away Lord so that you can use me to save others.  Lord thank you for pushing me into my destiny. I know that the best is yet to come for my sisters and for me because we are obedient in your sight. Thank you Lord, Thank you Lord, Thank You Lord…

In Your SON JESUS CHRIST’S NAME I PRAY…

AJ..

Be Blessed my sisters..

“I’m not going back
I’m moving ahead
Here to declare to you
My past is over in You
All things are made new
Surrendered my life to Christ
I’m moving moving forward
You have risen
With all power in Your hands
You have given me
A second chance”

If you don’t love, you are constantly in fear. Wether its the fear of failing in a new relationship, fear of actually caring enough about someone else to see your own desires falter.  If you don’t love, you are only fearing yourself and your own destiny. God is in control and we must submit ourselves to the universe. To love each other and to love the things that God has created. Have you ever took the time to really look at the food before you buy it, or before you eat it? Have you Taken the time to smell the vegetables or smell the fruit  to see the manifestations of God’s love? When we take the time away from truly loving our bodies and our minds, we take the process of self-discovery of nature and God’s own creations. There is no way you can love if you have fear. Adversely, there is no way you can be fearful if you have love. The very essence of the word fear is having doubt in your mind.

I remember when I fell in love with Jesus. I remember pouring out my heart and trusting only to him that my life would be different from that point on. That day was the best day of my life! Essentially I had been living my life in fear because I didn’t love God enough to put all my hopes and cares in him. Do you realize there is NOTHING  to hard for God? We can’t possibly love God and fear the economy. We can’t love ourselves and fear never getting married. We can’t be afraid of our future if we don’t love.

Although fear is a true human emotion and at some point or another we will all observe the emotion of fear. We must not live our lives in fear. I promise that if you choose to love instead of fear the whole direction of your life will change. Not just love of ourselves but love of the unverse and man kind.

I’m a naturally giving person, I get it from my grandmother, she will give everything to anybody. I really believe she does this because she loves people so much that she chooses to live without fear of how her own things will get taken care of. Now while my grandmother’s approach to things are very radical, I’ve attempted to do the same in a lot of aspect of my life. Even when I was jobless, I still tithed and to this day I have never had a day without food, or gas or anything that I needed. I received most of my wants too because I was faithful enough to live without fear. I love God and have so much faith in him that I will not live my life fearing a job, fearing an income, fearing anything because I chose to love God and trust him. I love God so much that I partake in giving him 10% of my income. Really, all the blessings and sources of income I receive are from God so giving him 10% is NOTHING. Life is the sum of the choices we make, if we choose to love or we choose to fear, life will always go on. So I ask you today, do you choose to fear or Love..

Peace and Blessings